April 13, 2008
Tuning Into The Goddess
As you can tell by a lot of my more recent posts, I have fallen by the wayside with blogging.
That unfortunately isn’t the only thing. I have completely fallen by the wayside in all things spiritual as well.
I have decided that I need to reconnect with the goddess within. I need to break out my tarot decks and start doing readings again. I need to start lighting my nightly candles and doing blessings. I need to rebuild my altar and pray.
When I was still living with my mom, I had my altar set up at all times. I would meditate in front of it on a regular basis. I was doing some work on myself to help get through tough times.
After my mom passed away, I went into a very dark time. Then I was forced to move out of our house and felt empty and cold. Even though I am living with my sister, I no longer have that safe haven. My parents had bought that house over 10 years before I was born. I lived there until my marriage. I moved back during my divorce. My energy was everywhere in that house. It felt safe.
I have only been in this house about a year. The majority of the energy here is chaotic since my brother-in-law and my sister fight constantly. I feel like I am constantly being buffeted about on a current of foreign energy.
Its time that I start setting up my space. I need to get the energy in my room cleared. I need to take that place over as mine. I may not be able to calm the rest of the house down as I was able to do with my mom’s house, but I can at least make a safe haven for me.
My mom was really great with me being a pagan. In fact, even though my mom was a Christian, she tended to have many new age/pagan beliefs. She was a master practitioner in Reiki. She believed in speaking with the dead. In fact, she used to own a Ouija board when I was much younger. I think her beliefs are what truly inspired me to look beyond conventional religion and find my own place in the world.
That is so important. I went to a retreat held by the Unitarian Universalist’s (at the Sufi temple) it was based on John ODonohue’s book Anam Cara. The chapter we engaged in spoke of the the importance of Sacred Places and Solitude.
“Only in solitude can you discover a sense of your own beauty”
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Wakela - It is funny to me that I never picked this up about you before. I have an interesting spiritual life as well and am now studying wicca. I am a newbie. I have never felt so free and connected to who I am supposed to be in my entire life.
Glad that I visited you.
Happy Day!
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Taking time out from the world is in pretty much every religion and self-help book. We all have the need to meditate, even if we don’t always take the time to do it.
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@ Simone - I used to attend a Unitarian Universalist fellowship on a regular basis. They are great in that they teach you about all the wonderful religions in the world.
@ Queenie - The great thing about paganism and wicca is that you can tailor it to you. You choose your pantheon. You choose how you feel and how you think best helps you connect with diety.
@Chadwyck - I definitely agree with you. I think we could all use a little meditation. Maybe it would lessen the tensions in the world.
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